Coursing through my veins

I forgot to mention that after Steve and I spent some time settling in to this news and all the emotions it came with we decided to go for a flight. He wanted to go across the inlet to look for Moose and I couldn’t think of a better way to spend my evening. Ok, that’s not completely true. I am glad we did something special as a way to celebrate, but it seems like every time I go for a flight with him in our plane for more than 45 minutes I get airsick. I knew this but decided to go for it anyways. Looking back I can’t say that it was the best decision. Like I said, I’m glad that we did something special that night, but I experienced a whole new set of symptoms that I can only assume were due to these new hormones coursing through my body. After about a half hour into the fliht I got a headache. 45 minutes and I started feeling queasy. An hour and the cramping started along with lower back pain. And then to top it all off I got this panicky feeling. Uncontrollable anxiety took over and it was all I could do to keep calm even though every inch of my being wanted to be out of that cramped little space. I kept calm for as long as I could to avoid ruining the trip for Steve. But finally we had to head home. 

Regardless, it was an absolutely beautiful flight and we got to see quite a few moose. I think in the future Steve will take someone else with him to spot for moose but I’m glad he put up with me that night.

Oh, and that jittery, anxious feeling I had in the plane still hits me sometimes. It’s like when you get a fever and you can feel the heat running through your body, it makes you really achy and your heart races. That’s what it’s like minus the fever. The other night it kept me up for several hours. I was completely restless. I don’t know if its due to hormones or if it’s just my body’s way of reacting to all the emotions I’m feeling. But I can say that it’s a symptom I could definitely do without.

-K