Week 20-Baby Staton is a….

This week we realized that you truly don't know how you are going to feel or react to a situation until you have gone through it. Both Steve and I were adamant about the fact that we didn't care whether we had a boy or a girl. This is still very true but when we found out that we are having a boy we both had very clear reactions that we didn't expect.

For Steve it was one of excitement and relief. We didn't realize (or at least I didn't realize) how intimidated he felt about raising a girl. Of course he wants a little girl someday but for him this will be a chance to find his fatherly bearings before taking on the complexities of the female makeup.

I had an immediate reaction of excitement and later realized that I was very nervous. This could be partly due to the sense of reality brought on by finding out our baby's gender. But I also know there is a part of me that feels more equipped for raising a girl (must just be because I am one.)

In truth I'm not sure we are really ready for raising either. Granted, we are more prepared now than we would have been 6 or 7 years ago simply because our marriage is stronger. But raising kids? This feels like completely foreign waters whether it's a boy or girl. I guess that is part of the deal right? In order to learn how to swim you just have to jump in. We have jumped and are now midair. Fully committed to this new task.

Aside from the nerves it feels like this new step in the process has gotten the ball really rolling. We can register for all the things we need (and want.) We can start planning and decorating the nursery. And we can get serious about locking in a name for this kiddo.

I have a feeling the next half of this pregnancy is going to fly by.

-K